BrenduhNicole♥

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Maybe I just wasn’t cut out for really bright and intelligent guys. Maybe I’m just too dumb for them. Sigh.

Love

such a precious thing. I guess for me, its just a lie now to get what someone wants. If someone really loved me, they wouldn’t give up so easily. They would work things out. I want to feel like you’ll always want me, that things will get better. Don’t just leave me out there to cry my eyes out. Talk to me about things, things that bother you, things you want me to work on. It helps me. It helps us. It helps grow our relationship into a better one. It actually shows me you fell in love more than just saying ‘I Love You’, because you really are showing me you love me enough to work things out with me and you still want me in your life as your girlfriend. It’s nice to see effort. Its nice to know you care. All I want to do is make my significant other happy. No matter what I lose, I’ll do whatever makes them happy. I could let go of all my friends if they make you uncomfortable. I could drive to you in a second if I could. Stay with you all day to show you no one else would take me away. That no one else has my attention. I only make myself clingy because I do not want to worry that some other girl has your attention. I want to be the person making you smile. No one else. If I suffocate you, tell me. I’ll back off. Communication is key. If you tell me to tell you something up front, I will. So you know what I am thinking. So you know that I’m not being an ass about it later. You told me to tell you everything, and I did. But you hated what you heard. So that’s what made you end it all. Now, what am I going to do? I told you everything, like you wanted. Yet, that is what made you give up.. I dont get it.. 

You made me so happy.

Now youre giving up. Im too clingy? Sorry I want to be with you so much. We live an hour from each other. I barely see you as is. I just want to spend time with you. You were the best thing to happen to me in a while. Now, you’re done. Fed up. And I cant do anything about it. Im so fucking stupid. I fuck up. No matter how much I try not to, I do anyways. Who will ever love me ? Who will ever just talk things out with me? Tell me Im wrong, so i can try an fix it in time.. But I guess , im just not good enough for anyone .. And i never will.. I just want to commit suicide..

I want to give up.